rib cage

(epilogue)

 

she

pulls me

out from

her

back

pocket,

unfolds

my

origami

heart

and

spits

her

gum

into it.

 

litters

me in

the

gutters

of the

suburbs.

 

incompl

ete like

sentenc

es,

 

joe

comes

by and

picks

me

up with

my

hobo’s

breath

and

borrowe

d words.

 

i can’t

blame

her,

she

didn’t

ask for

it,

 

and she

doesn’t

want it.

 

it is not

her

problem.

 

driveway,

drift of

snow

and a

doorknob

later i

breathe

orange

powder,

it’s

sweet in

my throat.

 

and then

i attempt

to open a

milwaukee

coffee

stout with a

pocketknife.

 

one

misplaced

fulcrum

and all of

my power

later…

 

i cut my

ring and

middle

finger

like the

colorado

river,

a melted

red

crayon

or

ceremo

nial

candle

through

the

grand

canyon

of the

bathroom

sink.

 

or i what

i mean to

say is,

 

i cut my

fingers,

as bad

as i’ve

ever

cut my

fingers.

 

ashley

says

stiches,

joe

uses

super

glue.

 

his

daughter

asleep

in her

bedroom,

we grown

wax life

and the

like like

ancients

in

andalusia.

 

after the

credits

the screen

stirs static

till the tape

gets

rewound

and

someone

presses

play.

 

i scratch

my itch

with a

borrowe

d pen on

notebook

paper

with

bandage

d fingers

black

from

blood

like

india ink.

 

i spit gum

in the hair

of my

happiness

and long

from my

blue

heaven

for my

abigail

cable.

 

my

feelings

make our

friendship

a cruel

parody of

courtship,

the irony

isn’t lost

so much

as it’s

ignored,

and this

kicks my

teeth in.

 

bury my

wounded

heart at

dusk

beneath

the

mojave

with

nameless

bodies 

and alien

video

game

cartridges.

 

or my

feelings

a fiddle

she plays

when

she’s

bored

and our

friendship

a roaring

dumpster

fire.

 

at our

worst,

we were

insolent

children

playing

with

matches,

at our

best

drunk

clowns

juggling

water.

 

the space

heated

morning

swells

my

senses

like a

slow

rolling

stratus.

 

your

heart is

a

prisoner

you keep

until you

don’t.